It is what it is.

3:26 can’t sleep just took another ambien and a half.
I need rest

cakesandhippyshakes:

I’m a Lupus survivor, working on 5 years of remission in September so you’ll occasionally read my daily struggle with living with that.

You can ask me any questions about this as you like. I’m open about my struggle with SLE. 

It’s time for HASH!
GOOOOOD MORNING

I’ve been so so sick since the 1st of January. Couldn’t keep food or water down for 10 days. Found out today when I went to the doctor that my stomach stopped creating the enzyme to digest the food.
Anyway I got put on some new meds & I’m going to take them every day.
Ill kick lupus’ ASS if its the last thing I ever do. I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE.
Got home worked on straightening and organizing my kitchen

Made a peanut buffer cream pie &
Gonna make a meal for my family.

LIFE IS GOOD. I LOVE MY FAMILY and everyone that believes in me.

I will do right by Mason, he needs his mom.

Things have been okay since I started my new meds. Gonna have to see a rhumotologist But that’s okay.
I can’t wait to feel normal again!

So just gonna throw this out there,
A couple of weeks ago I checked the mail & finally got approved for health insurance!
I couldn’t believe it, I fell to the ground outside of my house when I opened the letter, I saw that it had the state DHS return address so, I opened it right there & BAM there was an insurance care WITH FULL BENEFITS! I cried and cried, picked myself back up, walked into the house where my husband asked me, WHAT’S WRONG! I couldn’t speak, I just handed him the card, all he could then do was hug me! My dad looked up & then I handed him the card, he also immediately burst into tears himself!

I made a doctors appointment met with the new doctor who talked to me for quite sometime. Then examined me, started poking me, it hurt but I held up.

He was a very interesting man, but that’s a whole nother story!
He told me that it was very obvious that I had SLE, he said I wouldn’t have even had to tell him.
He looked a little sad & said he didn’t really want to tell me, but I also have fibromyalgia. I was really bummed but #itiswhatitis. Makes a lot of sense why I felt the way I did.

HERE’S THE GOOD PART.
I was prescribed non narcotic medicines that actually work & I feel 100% like a normal person for 3 days in a row!

SO BLESSED

Sneezing, coughing, the whole inside of my right nostril is a scab.
I’ve puked up everything I’ve eaten in the last 72 hrs.
I pretty much feel like I’m dying.
Tomorrow have to take my dad to the doctor & do some stuff for his hot rod, but until then it’s me my sweats & my bed.

So I’ve had the flu for a whole 24 hours. I’m a giant baby! Feel like shit, but just took a couple of dabs & feeling a little better. Gonna lay around & try to eat some White Castle mini burgers & watch SONS OF ANARCHY !

Thinking about California SUMMER TRIP!

I fucking get dabs Everywhere!

Lets fucking complain!

Resides in Ukiah, ca.

I don’t use tumblr enough.

Dear best friend. I don’t know how I live with out you by my side at all times.
This 2000 miles away shit is OLD!
Fuck this I wanna go home.

There’s to many little cunts running around in my life GTFO!